How to Be Your Own Loving Valentine

How to Be Your Own Loving Valentine

How can we take an empowered approach to a holiday like Valentine’s day?

This pandemic has been somewhat of a rough go for everyone but especially for some more than others. If that is you, no matter who you are, I want to send you the warmest hugs and blessings from the bottom of my heart.

I want you to know that I get to work with people every day who are suffering on many levels with the challenges of this past year, the hurts, the pains and losses, even when they feel minor to you, I just want you to know that it’s okay to be having a hard time. We all kind of are. And things are getting better slowly but surely. 

I want to also say that I am a huge believer in self-love, self-nurturing and finding your supports. This is why I do what I do for a living and I am utterly impressed, and I am not just saying this, I am PROUD of every single client who walks through my door for a massage.

It is such an act of courage to reach out, to make an appointment for yourself, to give yourself permission to just BE with yourself, your body and healing touch.

It’s hard for me, too, and I’m in this every day. 

Self-compassion is a healing mind-set that we get to nurture and make stronger with every choice we make. Be so kind to yourself. 

My Valentine’s gift to you is to remind you to reach out, to do something for yourself that feels brave to do or something you’ve neglected that you love. 

If that’s massage, wonderful! I am not trying to be Hallmark-y just to sell you a gift card but you know, it’s what I do and I’m offering you the easy gift here 🙂 (wink wink). For yourself! For your lover or friend or your kiddo’s teacher… I’m here for you.

Hugs,

Katy

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Our deep longing for stability and security…

What a time, what a week, what a year. As I’ve been working with clients through the pandemic and this week more than ever, I’ve noticed people really longing for stability and security in their lives. My clients are grasping for a deeper sense of how to frame what is happening outside of them, in the world as they feel the effect of events outside themselves. 

So here we are in the weirdest year ever. 

Many of the things in our lives that we previously thought of as steady and fixed have now proven to be a source of unknown variability and uncertainty.

Our commutes, routines, schools, our work environment and our social circles…

Our sense of safety in the outside world, our health, social and political layers of reckoning…

there is so much change and fragility.

We find ourselves joking about what’s the next surprise as we assess these collective previously unfathomable shifts to our day to day. 

Can we just take a moment on that note and breathe? We have to give that a minute and not just simply move on to the next, you know?

I just want to acknowledge your heart in this, your body and mind, this incredible being that you are that is ultimately HERE, alive and somehow still functioning, rebalancing and adjusting to SO. MANY. CHANGES! It’s quite incredible isn’t it?

So… 

What I am seeing is this deep collective longing for stability, security, and safety; for a sense of control and for things that we can count on. Feeling into the notions of consistency and routine is soothing, isn’t it? Ahhh. Routine. Predictability.

Our bodies settle, our nervous system can shift from that high alert state into a deeper, calmer sense of self. This is a mind shift and it is so physiological because we are animals! We have a gift as human animals that we can consciously shift our bodies into that relaxed state of the parasympathetic nervous system that is where we rest, digest and settle. Where we heal, nurture and return to our own inner safety. This is such a gift of being human and it takes attention and practice, especially in times like these.  

How can we cultivate this deep sense of stability and security within ourselves?

 1. First tune into what is within your realm of control and what is not.*

Write down those things that really are out of your hands. Things not in your control might be what others say or what they think about you. These are things that we’ll find our way to peace with, release them to the universe, go on a walk, find your own ways to surrender to what is in those realms.

2. What is within your control?

When we see that we do have ways that we are in control over our bodies, our home environment, how we operate, we can begin to shift our attention to what we need. You are in control of your inner realm, some of your thoughts and focus, your next step, your next action.

3. What do you need in your life right now?

If it is this deep sense of stability, start to notice in your life where stability shows up, where you feel secure and what brings you a sense of safety. This can be from things like your budget, your warm home, the car that gets you to and fro, your family, your adoring pet, the tall swaying trees outside of your window. It can be simple and small.

4. Next, how can you call more stability and security into your life?

Write down ways that you can create more and more stability in the near future in your home, social networks, financial life, your routines or health. This might be by calling a friend more regularly, taking a regular walk or learning a new skill that would feel stabilizing for your future.

What we put our attention to expands! Look at this list in the mornings, when you are feeling anxious or when you want some reminders of how deep that well is inside of you. 
 

Your journal prompts…
 

Things that I cannot control:

Things that I can control:

I have stability in my life in these ways:

I am calling more stability into my life everyday in these ways:
 

Warm hugs to you on this blustery fall day here in Seattle. 


Big love,

Katy 

*I would like to give a nod to one of my favorite authors and speakers, Gay Hendricks who uses a process around the things I can control/can’t control in his book The Joy of Genius, which I highly recommend. 

Photo Credits: Johannes Plenio & Aaron Burden

Coziness, Contentment and Well-Being

What lights the fire of this cozy sweet life of yours? 

We are creatures who seek comfort in so many ways, naturally, habitually. In this changing of the seasons now as the leaves dance in colors and we flow into November, let us honor this instinct to draw inward and to self-soothe. Get sweet with yourself and find those things that help you feel nurtured. 

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We are creatures who seek comfort in so many ways, naturally, habitually. In this changing of the seasons now as the leaves dance in colors and we flow into November, let us honor this instinct to draw inward and to self-soothe. Get sweet with yourself and find those things that help you feel nurtured. 

Have you heard of the Scandanavian term “hygge”? It’s lovely!

Hygge reflects a cultural draw in Denmark to a sense of comfort, simplicity, warmth and drawing in a sense of community to your life. It is a concept that can encompass many principles of personal happiness and delight and is different for each person. It’s about savoring in the charm of simple pleasures of life year-round, but especially as the nights get longer and colder. So into this! 

2020 has brought us an unbelievable amount of twists and turns, many of us finding that our nervous systems are on high alert to the stresses of change, uncertainty and isolation. It’s collective and real. It’s easy to normalize on some level but this is really an important time for us to focus inward in a new way.

Now more than ever, we have an opportunity to learn to self-soothe and find great benefit to our bodies, our spirits, our health and overall well-being. I love drawing from the gentleness of hygge and finding your own creative way to settle your spirit. 

My 8-year-old son and I recently moved into a sweet new home in a quiet neighborhood. After the stresses of this year in general, my soul needs nourishing and calm. Starting with a fresh, empty home has brought me so many ideas about how to create and fill my space with a sense of connection to ME. What do I love to do? How do I find rest?

I am setting up my resting areas in special places around the house where I can look out and see trees, sit by the space heater fireplace (even fake fires are relaxing :), sip some rose tea and dig into a freshly downloaded novel. I’m making space for my son to dive into dark afternoon Lego projects. I’m finding ways for us to get creative together with puzzles and crafts that help us feel connected as a little family. Also… I have the BEST bathtub with the HOTTEST water that has already brought me incredible amounts of  joy. My last home I had to boil five kettles of water to even get excited about a bath. Low light, music, hot water. Thank you, universe! 

So… let’s hear it for what is cozy for you? How do you rest and self-soothe?

Happy sweet times to you ahead, my friends.  I’m grateful to be here with you. 

Love you all with all with my big, open heart,

Katy

Rise Up get back in your game

Guided Meditations: I’m not sure where I’d be without them!

They help calm my mind and focus in on how I want to feel, think and operate.

When my mind is too wiley to be still… I can tune in to this space and just listen. I am so grateful for the wonderful people who create these offers for my body and mind. 

I lean hard on my insight timer app

It’s got an incredibly attractive interface and a TON of free meditations, talks and workshops to browse. You can find your favorites and save them, listen to them over and over for some killer sleep support, general relaxation and learning. 

Other apps you might want  to try are Headspace and Calm.

And here is my very favorite thing to watch/listen when I need to shift my mindset. I think I have listened to it over 100 times! 

(start at 4:24 if you’d like to just hear the meditation – listen to the whole thing the first time through! 🙂 

Enjoy the process of finding the teachers and meditations that soothe your soul and help you be, think, relax in exactly the way that you want to! 

in case you forgot

Big love,

Katy

Rise Up get back in your game

Re-imagining Self-Care

Hi honey, I hear you. This week has been a little brutal here in Seattle. The air is clear now. We are wearing masks, staying in, staying away. And guess what?! Here comes the rain. And that’s okay. Sigh.

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Oh my gosh, if you had told any of us that the pandemic would not just be this two week blip of an inconvenient shut down… we would have flipped out entirely.

Here we are and we are still kicking. Aren’t we? Aren’t we just amazing animals that can adapt and flex and here we frigging are?!? Still here.

How have you fared?

I have swam through the waters of so many shifts and life changes in these last months. I feel so far from the old life I had back in February 2020 that felt honestly,  a little too fast, a little disconnected, a bit too full of FOMO and making WAY too many things happen in this one simple and easy life I’ve got here.

In April, I watched the huge Maple tree in my backyard bloom, noticing it for the first time in ten years. TEN YEARS!

In May, I decided to pivot the way that I do my business entirely and signed up for some incredible classes that will change the way I work with clients.

In June, I let go of all of my summer plans for good. I melted into the struggle. Summer with full time kiddo, no camps, no plans was a little rough.

In August, I found small ways to make my summer feel like a summer after-all.

It’s FALL! I can’t believe it. I’m feeling like… my body is slightly traumatized and still in high alert and at the same time, I feel way tougher. I feel way more flexible and I feel like my life is permanently simplified. Because I was forced to full stop for a while. I really didn’t realize how high I was revving before, flying through life.

So now… I want to take it slow. I want to give my nervous system some time to calm down. To be sweet and still. To sink into whatever rhythms and routines I can that feel nurturing, loving and slow. I’m learning to befriend myself.

What works for you?

Healing from a place of self- compassion

savs-0KHC0_X4GeU-unsplashDid you know that you are actually the one who knows your body the very best?

In countless hours I have spent with my clients who are experiencing pain, I see people who are coming to terms with being the one who is actually in charge of thier own healing. There’s a weight to that. It can feel like a lot to manage and deal with, especially managing the emotional aspects of this. Yes, there are absolutely doctors and plans and programs for your health. It starts of course, with having a wise and comprehensive health care team of advisors and people who can accurately asess and problem solve with you. I love when I see people tackling pesky, chronic issues with their health from a variety of angles. Here in Seattle, we are blessed with a culture of wellness and the number of providers and alternative health practitioners is quite awesome. You can start with one great referral, ask around and ask lots of questions, learn to trust your gut and go from there,  one step at a time.

I have seen clients with chronic neck pain, nerve pain, low back pain… so many issues that feel like they have a clear beginning but no real timeline of progress that you can hold on to.  There are things that work and things that work for just a bit. There are appointments and exercises, stretches, new approaches and self-care to dos. How do you manage all of this without getting overwhelmed and discouraged? You feel like who is actually in charge with the right answers and how are we going to fix this thing?!?!

To start, I would propose that coming at this from a place of peace can help in every way. What does this even mean? Well, as out-of-your-hands as healing can often feel, what is in your hands? You, my friend, are in charge of your inner environment, your perspective, your sense of self and what it feels like to be you in this body. You know this, noone else. Your experience is deep and informed for what it is like to be you. What can we work with here?

I would invite you to look at your healing and look at some of the beliefs around your pain and healing. Write them down. Be real. This pain frigging sucks because…. get it all out. Do you feel like this will never end? Do you feel like you were lead astray? Are you pissed that you can’t play your sport or even get through the day comfortably? Are you blaming yourself? Do you feel betrayed by your body?  GET. IT. OUT. Listen and observe. Write it down and take a look at the situation your mind is in, the subconscious that is at play all day here in the background. So tough. I’m so sorry that it is hard and it’s so good to give yourself a hug of compassion for that. Like, REALLY. Be kind to yourself for what you are going through, the losses, the complications and stress and costs.

Next, can you find a place of nuture for yourself that feels warm, comfortable, quiet, still? If you meditate regularly, you are familiar with this space but sometimes we get so stuck in our heads its hard to turn the noise down. We forget the noise is on full volume sometimes. Can you sit even in your car before you open the door and get out… wherever you can give yourself a mini-break to tune in. Take a big fat breath, really, really deep breath.

Now with your hand on your heart, say:

I am in pain. I am feeling down (insert:  angry, mad, stressed, bummed, etc) about this.  

Everyone feels pain. Everyone feels down at times.

It’s okay to feel pain. It’s okay to feel down

Give yourself a few breaths in this still space that you’ve created where it’s okay to be human. It’s okay to feel flawed and down and out and hopeless. Injury is hard. Recovery is hard. Maybe this is all you need is a little love for a sec.

AND… then if you’re up for it…

In this space,  see if there is another way of looking at this. What are you willing to let go of here?  Yes, it totally sucks when your body can’t do what it wants to do comfortably. Look at the beliefs you stated before all of that suff that’s under the surface about this pain. Is there anything that you’re ready to release? What thoughts and beliefs about this situation can just go? Take a few deep breaths and see if that is possible. Breathing deeply, notice the thought for a moment and release it into the ethers. Breathe it out and let it go. Are there any shifts with that releasing?

If you sit with how your body is, just is in this moment, where can you find acceptance?

Can you find areas of your body to simply observe the sensations without any labels, judgement or trying to change it?

Are there any benefits that you’ve gleaned from this injury, any hidden gems from this path that you didn’t intend to be on?

Can you let go of any expectations, find more patience, less grip on the timeline?

You might try this and just see where it takes you. I have been fascinated with the transformations that have happened in myself with this type of self-compassion. This here is my hug to you, oh dear one who is suffering at times within this ol’ bag of bones. Our bodies are so amazing, dynamic, magical. Your body will appreciate every ounce of compassion that you send to it and the heart housed within. BIG HUGS to you!

Love, Katy

Stuff that feels good

img_2151So, I am big on lists. Here’s a list of things I love to do for myself, things that make me feel healthy and happy. Things that when I do them, I think: Dang, thank you, Katy. You are such an awesome friend to me (yourself. myself. you get it).

See if any of these hit you in your heart:

  • Reading on the beach at sunset (had to lead with the picture caption)
  • Getting a massage (had to follow with a plug for my business)
  • Going to sleep early (this is totally new to me. I still kind of hate it but it always feels good to have done it)
  • Waking up and having some time to drink my coffee and journal, meditate, stare at the magnificent morning weather (I crave this every morning)
  • To really be present with my mind, my senses, my intentions just right here and now. Even for 5 seconds.
  • Doing exercise that feels really, really fun. I recently rediscovered hula-hooping! Its very fun and silly.
  • Going to see a great healing practitioner on a good recommendation. I’ve recently enjoyed acupuncture that blew my mind, totally shifted me.
  • Listening to really inspiring podcasts, teachers, TED talks, audio books in the evenings or while I’m driving.
  • Seeking community out and making the effort to show up to things that I’d love to be effortlessly a part of eventually. Community is rich and amazing. It’s out there if you need it ever.
  • Simplifying my house and getting rid of so much crap!
  • Keeping my house tidy… somehow this has evolved into my pretty often habit and it feels quite peaceful. I used to drive myself mad with clutter tornadoes until I realized that it paralleled the state of my mind. Tidy=calm mind? Sometimes?
  • Stretching at night, even 5 minutes. It feels like the opposite of coffee in the morning.
  • Leaving my devices off in the evenings. I do not do this ever. But it sounds like a really good idea!
  • Practicing surrender, gratitude, mindfulness and embracing ME as being exactly as I am right now. Huge life concepts boiled down to to one run-on sentence. This is my work.

What do you think? Make your own list (even in your head) and see what you come up with!

How to love your body when you feel like shit

a-walk-through-the-woods-benjamin-bergh-photography-580x390There is a patience required for healing and injury that is often so underestimated. I see it time and time again in the work that I do with my clients. You get injured, you have pain, something needs some healing attention. There might be a specific injury or illness, a diagnosis and a plan for recovery. There might be a timeline that a doctor has given you. There’s shock, frustration, hope and then just waiting. Waiting and recovering and healing and doing the slow, inner work that your body needs to heal. This can feel super shitty and boring sometimes! Where’s the drama and endorphins and sweaty adventures?

My take on it is: YES gather all the information you can, talk to a diverse range of healers, doctors, get on a plan for recovery. Your body physically, mechanically needs a host of support for healing from all angles and you can appreciate the support from experts. Do the program. Rest, ice, recover, strengthen, lengthen, whatever the plan is. Create habits around your healing and rest in that structure of: DO THIS (if there is such a structure).

Then you go inward. Notice your expectations and frustrations. Notice where you’re feeling let down by your body, by anyone on your health-care team, by yourself. Are you pissed that you’re not feeling well? That you’re not recovering as fast as you’d like? Are you frustrated that you can’t do this or that? Anything there? Feel what you’re feeling. Let yourself process the emotions around these things.

Next,  in this range of feelings around injury and recovery, notice if you’re able to be really gentle with yourself and your body. Are you being kind to yourself? Isn’t it amazing how our bodies just heal? It’s not always as outwardly stunning as an animal that can regrow a limb but our bodies are frigging amazing at healing! The thing is it’s so internal sometimes, so subtle, so mysterious to us looking in from the outside. What if you were able to have infinitely more patience for this deep process? Is there a way to set aside timelines that require you to be READY to go or back to “business as usual” by this date or that? What if your body is just totally on time with where it’s at? What if there is some crazy reason you’ve been nudged to slow down a little? Do you have room for these possibilities?

Instead of EXPECTING immediate optimal health and being pain-free and good to go, try to cultivate so much gratitude for the optimal health that you do have in all of these other areas that COULD be so messed up but aren’t. Remember how awesomely you DO support your healing already.  Your body is thanking you everyday for the extra rest, the extra water, the nutrition, the exercises, the TLC of any kind you’re throwing it’s way. Your body is kicking ass in healing right now, constantly. Be so, so sweet to yourself and remember to be so, so patient and loving. Your body will reward you so!

Wonderful, mysterious life

 

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Looking back at my last blog entry it was really an eternity ago, May 2013. I remember thinking about how important it was to get that blog post up, a mix of stress and need to feel productive and pride and passion. A few days later my husband passed away suddenly on his way home from work, heart failure at the age of 37. I was standing there with our one-year-old son on the sidewalk waiting for him to come home and his car stopped in the middle of the street only a few blocks away when he died. So, just like that, just as Feilpe’s entire life stopped mid-breath, my world came down around me almost three years ago now. I look at something like this marker of time and how my world was before this and now after and… it just takes my breath away, really. It makes me stop. Three years later (forever and ever ago and just a blink of the eye ago) and I am a totally different person.

 

Sometimes I ramp back up to put just as much importance on a blog post as I could on spending time with my precious son because I know it’s our natural tendency to not be in the wonderment of the mystery of life all day.  We would just all be floating around all day in awe. At the same time, I see life in a totally different way now as I do live the day to day. I had about a good year after Felipe died of living in the deepest mystery of what life is, why we are here, what is important, really getting my mind blown with one revelatory realization after the next. I just let it happen. I let all of the illusions of my life from before my husband passed just drop away around me; dreams that I thought would happen, the way that I thought anything would happen, my identity as a wife, a two-parent family, financial securtiy of a partnership, everything that I thought was real that in the moment that Feilpe passed, I was shown were total illusions. I had to grieve each of those layers as they were revealed to me one by one, like: “Oh, I thought this was true about my life that I would grow old with this person and we would live here and there and would play tennis together, and go on these trips and have this house.” We walk around thinking that our world is a certain way but really, in a moment all of that can change. We walk around in our stories and give a LOT of importance to those stories of who we are and what value we place on certain things, positive and negative. The truth is, all that we can ever hold onto is our PRESENT MOMENT. There is really nothing else that we can work from but our now. We have a choice to be completely present right now and feel as much ease, peace, joy and harmony as we want.

 

I challenge you to notice what you hold as true, fixed, permanent in your life. Where could you benefit from detaching a bit from certain things like feeling frustrated that this one thing is like this. Maybe if you looked at it through a different filter, it could be a totally different story. In that first year of grief, I would watch a lot of documentaries about death and spirtual things but something I found strangely comforting in my sadness was watching tsunami documentaries. It is a shocking and sad realization that people are having as they are often calmly filming on their phone what to them seems like a big, unreal flood and then… it turns into the most life-altering and unfortunately deadly circumstance that noone can ever even fathom. These videos would make me feel connected in my experience to the fact that every single one of our realities that we live on a daily basis are so fragile. How we get to work, what we eat, resources we have, the people we see everyday… nothing is static and unchanging and to be taken for granted. We must have so much gratitude for the things that we do have in our lives today, without fearing the worst that can happen by any means, but by living so fully in the moment that we can relish the time that we DO have with our loved ones. We can be so at peace in the “STORY” of who we are without being so attached to it that we can’t adapt, mold to the shifting tides and ultimately, be more present to what our life is giving us right now in this moment.

 

Thank you for reading my story.

Perspective on Pace

 

What if you could pick yourself up like a chess piece and transport to a part of a world that lives a little slower: like watch the world go by your front porch for a while. As in lie in a hammock after a hard day’s work knowing that you’ve done enough. We’re talking sitting down with your friends for a few hours of idle chat and sharing rather than maybe just a few quick  minutes. What if you could immediately get that perspective on your own pace of life and how it might be affecting you on every level of your life: physically, mentally, spiritually?

After a break that offered me some much needed rhythm adjustment, I’m looking for ways to hold onto the mellow that is so healing to me. I feel like when the time factor is taken out, I’m able to reflect on slowness not just as a concept but as a part of who I am. My body relaxes.
Must we live so fast? What is my rhythm?
Are there some things that can silently drop off the to do list?
How about one thing at a time today?
What are some meaningful ways to shift the flow for a while just to see how it feels?